dainty and beautiful
“I want to make even strangers question if i’m eating because i’m thin in a starving way” 🦋 A thinspo based on what i’ve been feeling/noticing/thinking/hearing as I get closer to my ugw 🦋
repost because the first one got deleted. I added more this time.
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❀ I want to be able to say “food isn’t something important to me” without even opening my mouth. I want them to think “she definitely didn’t eat”
❀ I don’t fake “I forgot to eat” anymore because it’s part of me now (so true)
❀ In college/school walking lightly and Skipping steps next to fat people biting into their sandwiches because that makes me feel strong
❀ “your hands are cold”
❀ I used to hide my face with my hair. Now I completely expose it to show off my defined cheekbones
❀ Drowning under my soft hair because my face and neck are slender now and that makes me feel like a doll
❀ I have 200+ selfies because YOU WILL LOOK BEAUTIFUL IN ANY ANGLE ANY LIGHTING ANY FILTER
❀ My chokers used to uncomfortably press on my neck without being fully closed NOW they slide down my neck even when they’re fully closed (not a lie I need to buy new chokers)
❀ Sitting for hours playing video games isn’t making me feel lazy and fat anymore
❀ Waking up to a flat stomach because sleeping hungry is almost garaunted flat stomach in the morning
❀ Wearing your hand watch and of having to close a hole further
❀ No longer self conscious in short sleeves/sleeveless shirts because of your dainty arms
❀ People insisting you eat with them (huge sign)
❀ Constantly hearing “let me carry that for you” “leave it if it’s too heavy for you” “don’t carry the heavy stuff!”
❀ “I want to see you eat a burger it will be so cute because you’re small”
❀ People pointing at your visible wrist bone and your skeletal hands while there’s is covered in fat
❀ Hearing some family members freak out over missing foods and snacks while I haven’t eaten in a couple of days and completely deleted snacking out of my system and I feel… proud (Yes I hate myself for thinking like that)
❀ “how much do you weigh?!” out of nowhere!
❀ “Is that a bone?” when someone touches you randomly
❀ Beautiful rip cage shadows on your chest
❀ Ankels sticking out even under your socks
❀ When you hold yourself together fat doesn’t sag out from your body folds anymore (this’s one of the best, do you know that extra fat that comes out from the side of your knees when you hold your legs to your chest? GONE)
❀ Shoulder edges become sharp after they were round. they are noticeable even under your clothes
❀ Socks don’t press on your fat and leaving marks on your feet anymore
❀ That’s probably an ana thing but… your bum will be gone. you won’t be able to sit on hard floor anymore because it hurts. you won’t sit on your fat you will start to sit on something hard… your bone (doesn’t sound nice huh?)
❀ I order side dishes and salads when eating out with others because it’s what I truly want. it won’t always be about the calories, it becomes to be about what you’re comfortable with even if it’s okay to cheat
❀ The top side of your backbone appear without you having to bend
❀ Loving to be hungry because it means I can laze around and play video games or watch movies for hours while the hunger shrinks me
❀ I don’t feel disgust when I take off my clothes anymore instead i’m reminded of how thin I am making me confident and feeling better
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